Sorry for my absence lately.  I am being pulled in many directions right now, and it seems that it is this little place that has to give a little.  As I prepare for my new baby in about three weeks, I am also going through some difficulties with Elliot.  I guess three is the magic age for us, no terrible two's here, just some really trying three's.  He takes all I have to give and more, and it scares me to death that soon I will have to give to someone else.  Is there any left?  I'm not sure.  We've set up a life here with very little support system, and I'm really feeling it right now.  Struggling with my own perfectionism, and comparing the Mother I thought I would be with the Mother that I am. 

And missing my own Mom terribly, for the support she could give me, as well as the place she would have in the lives of my kids.  And knowing that someone else I love very much is needing her even more than me right now. 

So for now, be patient with me.  Some of you are owed emails, I'll try to get to it.  My family needs me right now.  I'm thankful to have this place to come and hoping some of you can understand.